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We all attend Gwladys Street School, which
lies on the other side of the Everton
Football
Club.
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| Gwladys Street Infants School |
The original infant schoolhouse, where we
first go to school at the age of four,
is
a typical Victorian shiny-red brick
build
structure, with sliding wooden partitions
to divide off the rooms. It has tiny
low
toilets and washbasins. The cloakroom
hooks
have pictures of animals to help us
tiny
tots identify our hats and coats and
toothbrushes.
The gate leads directly on to the main
Liverpool
to Manchester road. One day my little
cousin
David runs straight out under the wheels
of a heavy lorry and is crushed. It
was an
accident waiting to happen. They erect
a
protective barrier after that. He's
only
six years old.
The junior section of the school is
housed
in two barrack-like extensions. The
two huts
are built from corrugated tin with
a brick
skirt. They have thundering wooden
floors
and loose brass doorknobs that rattle
when
somebody walks past the classroom.
The high
narrow windows are hinged in the centre.
They need a long pole with a hook to
open
or close them.
A window-monitor is appointed from
among
the children for this purpose. We also
have
a milk-monitor who hands out the free
government
sponsored milk every day. We each get
a half-pint
bottle in the morning and another one
in
the afternoon. There's also an ink-monitor
who is responsible for filling the
inkwells
in which we dip our steel-nibbed pens.
It's
there that I succeed in winning the
only
raffle prize in my life. It's a tin
of connie-onnie.[1]
It's Nestlé's sweetened milk, and provides
a welcome treat – Hal and I eat it
with a
spoon!
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Gwladys Street School was hit by a bomb on
the 20th September 1940. The old
corrogated galvanised steel
iron building in the foreground
is the classroom
where Hal and I were taught.
Click photo for an enlargement.
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While the other
kids play rough games, Hal and I lean
on
the low sandstone wall that forms the
perimeter
of the playground. We laboriously rub
a plum
stone on the rough wall to wear it
down into
the shape of a small boat. We have
cinnamon
sticks, liquorice, and sherbet in the
absence
of sweets. Bananas and ice cream are
unknown
to us in that immediate post-war period.
I ask Hal for his memories of Gwladys
Street
School and query whether he remembers
his
first day in the nursery.
‘Yes,’ answers Hal, ‘I remember my first day as if it were yesterday.
Strange though Jud, I don't remember
you
being there, although you must have
started
on the same day.
He walks
to the
drink cabinet and throws some ice in
a glass.
' I remember being taken to the Infants Department
by my Mam even before we started at
school...
Hal yawns, more as a form of puntuation
than
a sign of tiredness.
'... just to have a look around. Mam
leaves
me in the big hall and goes off to
look for
the lady. In the room is a big doll's
house.
I look through the window and I'm fascinated.
I squeeze through the little doorway
and
gaze around in wonderment at the miniature
furniture and tiny teapot and tin cups.
Suddenly
I hear my Mam returning with some female
administrator. Not seeing me in the
hall,
they're scuffing round searching me
out.
I'm peeping out of one of the windows
but
they don't spot me. I'm too scared
to shout
out and own up where I'm. Eventually,
after
calling out my name a lot, they go
outside,
out of sight to look for me. ‘NOW's
my chance!’
I think. I'm half way out of the tiny
doorway
when suddenly I am stuck. As I'm trying
to
struggle free, my Mam and the lady
return.
The administrator is very annoyed.
She tells
me off in front of my mother. She tells
me
to stand there and behave myself. So
you
see, I am in trouble even before I
start
school. Blotted my copybook before
I even
start! As I stand there I'm fetched
a hard
crack across the earhole by my Mam,
then
she grabs me by my collar and marches
me
out – much to my shame.
'Wait until I get you home!' My Mam shouts. Later when my Dad comes home,
she tells him about it. I'm scared,
and expect
the leather belt. He listens, then
hides
his face behind the Liverpool Echo that he's reading to hide his smiles.
'On the day that school starts,' I say, ' I'm marched along to school by my Mam. I'm
very embarrassed when the other little
kids
waiting outside see us approach. I'm
scared
when my Mam leaves me alone. I feel
deserted
and vulnerable. We are made to introduce
ourselves to each other. They are breaking
us in gently. Mainly we just talk.
The teacher
is strange and scary.'
'Do you remember one of the kids just starting
that day is Lilly Beazley? Hal growls.
'I don't know whether you remember her Jud?'
The loud noise of a television suddenly
booms
out from the adjoining house.
'Damn those noisy gits!' Hal croaks.'
He takes a slug of whisky and speaks again.
'It's the first time that I see her.
She's
a small girl with very sharp features
and
tin glasses – the same sort of glasses
that
you wore. She's very watchful, looking
at
me all the time, I don't know why.
I can't
meet her gaze, I don't know why. I
think
she's a Martian – she's a girl – she's
different.
I don't know what it is about her?'
I sit there amazed.
'How the hell do you remember all this
Hal?
You were only four years old for God's
sake!'
Hal grins and moves his head in a sideways
parabola.
'Just 'cos' I don't write like you
y'know
- it doesn't say I don't take everything
in that goes on around me!'
I kick my shoes off and wiggle my toes.
'Go on Hal - this is marvellous.' I
respond.
' Time goes on, the days pass and we're
given
our own desks. We are told to sit up
straight
and put our hands on the desktop. At
a certain
time in the afternoon, we're taken
to another
room. It isn't actually a different
room.
It's on the other side of a sliding
partition,
a partition that can be slid open or
shut
to divide or open up the room. Lying
on the
floor are rows of tiny mattresses.
We are
told to lie down and go to sleep. We
don't
think that we will sleep, but we do.
When
we wake up we have another play and
a walk
around the school, and then we sit
at the
desk again. Then our mothers appear
at the
doorway, and we all go home.
After we've been in school for a couple
of
weeks, I get a bit scared of Lilly
Beazley.
I'm sitting at my desk with my eyes
to the
front, and I know she's looking at
me. She's
always looking at me! I can never meet
her
gaze.'
Hal eases himself up in his seat and
wrinkles
his brow.
'Was I frightened of her? Was I shy?
I don't
know.'
He smiles and continues his story.
'Day after day I steel myself to meet
her
gaze, but I can never do it.
One day it's different. I feel very
confident.
Knowing that she's staring at the side
of
my head, I suddenly swivel round and
return
her stare. She's sitting a few desks
away.
Young as we are – when my eyes meet
hers,
I can sense something. It's as if beams
of
light are streaming from her eyes,
which
enter my body, creep down to my chest
where
they turn into chemicals. The chemicals
do
something to my chest – open a cage
within
my chest. A bird comes out of the coop
and
it flutters inside my rib-cage.
The telephone suddenly rings and Hal
leaves
the room to answer it.
I sit there thinking of Hal and Lilly
Beazley
- a young, sweet, inocent love. Such
calf-love can be as painful as a mature
passion.
And so it happened to me wnen I was evacuated to Shropshire
during the war.
I was lodged with the Head Gardener and his
wife on the estate of Lord and Lady Whitbread who owned a Georgian mansion called Burford House. In 1941 is was taken over by a private
Birklands Girl's School from St Albans down
south. One day buses and motor cars appear
on the gravel in front of the wide Georgian
building. The whole school has been evacuated
en bloc for the duration of the war. Soon
the ivy-covered walls of the old house are
reverberating with the screams and high pitched
giggles of the young middle class girls.
Now the tennis courts are full of pretty
young misses in short, white tennis skirts,
whilst others loll as spectators with white
woolen pullovers tied round their necks by
the arms.
There was a little girl slightly older than me
who I was sweet on. Her name was Helen Grey.
One day she met me and told me she was going
back to London. We stood in a glade of pine
conifers as she told me. Then she was gone
and left me weeping. I was only six years
old. The smell of pine always evokes
a memory of Helen Grey even sevently years later.
Hal's footsteps on the stair awaken
me from
my reverie. The door swings open.
'Sorry about that Jud!' calls Hal breezily.
'Don't worry about it mate,' I drawl, 'I know what it's like having daughters'
'She's got…y'know…a few problems. Hal interrupted. 'They're half way to being sorted out now.'
It's obvious Hal is reluctant to talk
about
his daughter, so I don't press him
for details.
'Where's that bloody drink of mine? He asks.
'Oh yes! Come here my beauty!' He retrieves his glass from the mantleshelf
and sinks down in his chair. '
Where am we up to Jud…?' Hal frowns.
'Oh yeah,' he says, smiling, 'I just remembered, sorry if it's a slight
change of subject. We went to New Brighton
once - I mean back in our childhood
- probably
in the mid to late forties. Dad asked
in
a cafe for hot water to make a pot
of tea,
with a wedge of tea sugar, and connie-onnie
all mixed up to give us a day out,
and a
few sarnies [sandwiches] and maybe
a bun
for a treat. That is where I saw my
first
breast. The image is evergreen. I mean
EVERGREEN.
I have never looked back. It was not
only
my throat that experienced a lump.
Do you remember our Billie finding all that
money in New Brighton? Mam and Dad
were honest
they took it to the police. The owner
was
found and Billie got a brand new Raleigh
bike, red with shiny chrome, it was
beautiful,
and to my shame, I was sick with jealousy.
Everyone set off for Southport , Mr
Bray
the bread man lent me his order bike
so I
could go. I only made it to Walton
church
I was bloody knackered [exhausted.]
Mr Bray felt so sorry for me he gave
me
a lump of fresh bread. I was so sore
underneath,
I was walking like John Wayne for some
time
.'
I laugh heartedly, for I remember
the
incident well. I excuse myself and
nip upstairs.
I take my time in the toilet. I need
some
time to myself. The talk with Hal is
wonderful.
I'm enjoying every moment but it requires
all my attention. It drains me emotionally.
It's part cross-examination, part confession.
I'm frightened unless I forget something.
I curse myself for not bringing a tape-recorder.
How will I remember it all? I wash
my hands
and sit on the toilet seat for some
moments
of quietness, staring at my hands.
Hal has refilled my glass in my absence
and when I retake my seat, he continues
with
his tale.
‘Sunday is a special day. it's hard
to describe
in what way. It 's quieter and yet
there
are more kids out in the street. The
posh
kids are dressed well on a Sunday.
We seem
to have the same old clothes on. He pauses to cough. 'Bloody fags! He complains.
'What about me….' I laugh, 'on two occasions, I am forced to wear my
mother's old shoes after the heels
have been
ripped off. I earned the name of 'Sparky'
- 'cos' as I ran along the wet pavements
- the metal 'sprigs' or nails, that
have
secured the heels - created a plenitude
of
entertaining sparks!
Hal chuckles heartily. 'Yeah, plenitude - that's a new word Jud!' He frowns.
'I'd forgotten all about that Sparky thing
Jud. Kids can be cruel can't they?
Looking
back now, I'll bet that really hurt
you -
didn't it?'
'I remember one rainy day a parcel arrives
festooned with bright, colourful, American
stamps.' I tell Hal. 'The package contains - Yes! You've guessed
it! A pair of new shoes! Further investigation
reveals sweets, children's clothing,
food,
and kid's books etc. The sender is
a young
American woman from El Paso in Texas,
USA,
and her name is Lily Chavez.[2]
'You lucky bugger! Hal says explosively.
'She's obtained of our address from
some
Aid Organisation I think.' I say. 'She's a lovely lady. The parcels continue
to arrive for some considerable time.
Lily
is a practising religious Catholic,
which
is I suppose typical of Mexican Americans,
and I've a feeling that her generosity
and
warmth springs from her devout feelings
and
Christian commitment. I am only a kid
at
the time but I write to her for about
a year.'
'Well we're short of clothes and shoes
too.' Says Hal. 'Sometimes we're a bit ashamed to go out.
The kids who belong to families with
only
one or two children seem to do OK.
They have
better clothes. Kids like Roy Lello,
Brian
Blackler or Val Snape.’
Christmas time is special too. The
preparations
for Christmas are very exciting. We
buy all
the crepe paper and get the white sticky-paste
out. We make our own decorations. First,
we cut out the crepe paper into strips
then
we glue them into rings to make up
a chain
we drape across the ceiling from corner
to
corner. We are busy making these and
we think
Christmas will never come – but all
Christmases
come.
When we get into the last week there
are
more exciting preparations. Mam borrows
the
bun-loaf tin off Mrs Cooper. There's
only
one bun-loaf tin in the whole street
and
half the street borrow it. You've to
go on
a waiting list for it – you've to wait
your
turn. It's then Mam works on the big
table
with all the currants, raisins, and
nutmeg
spread out around her. We kids stand
round
and watch her as she pushes the big
wooden
spoon around. The stiff, heavy mixture
swirls
around the bowl. When Mam isn't looking,
we dip our fingers into the doughy
got to
to taste it. It isn't as nice as we
expect,
being raw and uncooked – but still
we do
it.'
He leans back in his chair a beatific
smile
on his face. Obviously, his recollections
are bringing back some happy memories
as
well as sad ones.
'It's wonderful when Christmas Eve eventually
comes. Stillness descends over the
entire
neighbourhood. For once, the kids are
eager
to go to bed, for they know what's
coming
the next day. We write our notes to
Father
Christmas. Get Mam’s stockings. Hang
them
up in a row in the fireplace and go
to bed.
We're hardly able to sleep. However,
as always,
we fall asleep in due time. When we
wake
up on Christmas morning, we rush downstairs
to see our stockings all in a row.
We think
it's wonderful, but when I look back
now,
there is very little there. There's
an orange
and an apple each.
Then there's a little toy rather like
a twisted
skewer with a propeller attached. When
you
push up the propeller using a little
metal
sleeve the propeller twirls around
and flies
off into the air. Often boys get a
small
balsa glider in a flat cellophane packet.
The wings are fitted on with an elastic
band.
A larger band is used to fire it into
the
air. Both elastic bands usually snap
after
the first five minutes and that is
the end
of the present. If you're lucky, you
get
a game of 'Snakes and Ladders' or 'Ludo.'
The girls get a doll or a golliwog.
Sometimes
they get a nurses-outfit made from
cardboard.
One boy gets a mouth organ, bought
from
Crease’s on Walton Road.(3) The kids
puff
and blow on it all day, until under
your
ears ache and you stop. It accumulates
gallons
of spit during the time it passes from
mouth
to mouth; it's a wonder we don't all
die
of contagious diseases. Half the kids
in
the street have a go of it – sucking
and
blowing. Another present boys sometime
get
is a tram-conductor's outfit. Everything
is made out of cardboard. If it gets
a little
wet or is handled too roughly it falls
to
pieces. Nevertheless Christmas is wonderful
with all the family gathered around.
The
drink is flowing. Visitors wander in
then
out again. If we're lucky, Mam and
Dad allow
us to have a little wine. We think
we're
big drinking wine, but more often than
not
we drink Dandelion and Burdock or Tizer
or
Full Swing white lemonade which has
a raised
emblem half way down the bottle and
is made
somewhere down Scotland Road. Full
Swing
is also sold off the back of the Aerowater
cart.
I don't know if you remember the Aerowater
cart do you Jud?'
Hal looks up for a moment and smooths
back
his unruly hair.
'Yeah, I do. I murmur.
'It's sold in a stone bottle with a
round
stopper held in place by a metal wire
contraption.
If you get your thumb under it, you
can really
hurt yourself.
Aye Jud, Do you remember Daddy Hope
and
his children, daughter May, and the
son Bert,
I think, who could not swear, but we
all
respected them for their beliefs...
'
*Yes, I remember them well...,* I interrupted...' they lived at the top of Neston Street
somewhere Hal. I wonder how Daddy Hope
got
the nick-name *Daddy?'
*,,, and do you remember the man, who rode
a bike bollock naked up and down every street
singing and all the mothers getting their
brushes out? 'Geraway you dirty devil,' the
women screamed, and all the kids running
wild with excitement. 'Geraway you dirty
devil' brushes getting thrust out, all trying
to aim for the family jewels. 'How are you?
' he was saying, but his chopper was like
a baby's arm with an apple in it. ' Oooooh
fancy ', said Louie Birt. 'Oooh look at that
Nellie,' said another licking her lips,'
disgusting! 'Imagine his poor wife said another
looking feverish.
Up and down the streets he rode until
someone
realised the man was ill. Someone threw
a
blanket over him and took him in their
house.
The ambulance came later, but for us
kids
it was sad, 'cos it was over. Brushes
were
the weapon of choice in those streets.
'Geraway
you dirty devil.'
I'm listening to Hal closely. My eyes
are
closed, but he knows it's not because
I'm
tired or bored. He understands I'm
enjoying
every moment of it. He knows I want
to shut
out the present and luxuriate in the
past.
'Sharp memories come back' said Hal grinning, his slightly protuding,
but brilliantly white, attractive teeth
exposed
by his wide grin, 'the binman's horse - its particular smell,
two dogs mating in the street, and the mothers
out with there sweeping brushes "shouting
*Ge-ra-way you dirty devils!,' and all us
little boys thought they were playing piggy-back.
The gas man going down to empty the meter
of the coins, counting it out and giving
our Ma's the foreign ones back, and Mam saying:
' EVERY single time "Ooh, thought that
was a shilling!" The dark cellar, June
Thompson taking us up the entry to teach
us how to smoke, and us spewing our rings
up ten minutes later. The pretty dark haired
girl down the street, pregnant at fifteen
and her dad cried for the rest of his life.
Georgie Scott the milkman. Do you remember
"dummy" who used to always want
to get a game of footie. Scary one he was.
Chrismas carol singing, peering under the
door looking for feet. If someone threw a
boot at the door we legged it. Edna Hoffman
who by just walking down the street, jiggling
as she walked would send my stomach lurching,
hormones were kicking in.
His incredible memory was a joy to
experience
- how DID he manage to remember such
fascinating
detail. He was like a conjurer slyly
bringin
memories out of a hat - memories that
as
soon as you uttered them you knew that
you
hadn't forgotton them - it just need
e Hal
to tease them out from behind the black
velvet
cutain of the years.
His memories provoke so many similar
images
in my mind. I confess to him that in
the
old days I am a bit jealous because
he came
from a big family.
' I'd have loved to have had a father
and
brothers, and sisters like you Hal.' I mutter softly.
Hal can see I'm thinking. He stops
speaking
and goes into the kitchen to wash the
plates.
'Want a hand Hal? I shout.
'No, you relax son, I'm OK.'
I let my mind go back to those far
off days.
I remember meeting my Dad in the Mitre Hotel, in Oxford, he's telling me this story about
my Mam.
'It's about May 1941.' Dad says. 'Your mother can't stand the constant air
raids any longer. She leaves Eton Street
and goes to live in Gronnant, North
Wales
with a girl called Eddie Richards who
used
to live next door to her in Eton Street.'
I interrupt him. 'Why didn't she come and live with me in Tenbury
Wells? I ask.
''Search me son.' My Dad bows his head and picks nervously
at his wedding ring.
It's the first time I notice the ring.
It
suddenly hits me. It's not the ring
he got
from Mam. It's another ring. It 's
not a
wedding ring at all - because he's
not married,
he only lives with this woman. 'Where did you get the ring Dad? I ask.
'Off Audrey son.' He answers quietly, 'off Audrey,' he repeats. 'I write to your mother to ask her why she
has gone to live in Gronnant in north
Wales
instead of joining you in Worcestershire
son. She doesn't give me a satisfactory
answer.
'When your mother returns from Gronnant,
I come home on leave to see her. We
find
the house at Eton Street is in a dreadful
state. It's been occupied and abused
by friends
of your mother's. Your mother has allowed
them in on a temporary basis whilst
she's
away. We survey the devastated house.
'Who's going to clean all this up? She asks.
'Perhaps the fairies will do it!' I reply jokingly, but perhaps inappropriately.
I 'm sitting on a long white bench
as I
speak. Next minute your mother flings
herself
on me in a fury and pushes me over.
I fall
backwards striking my head on a chair.
She
then falls upon me and gouges deep
cuts down
both of my cheeks with her long fingernails.
I flee from the house and seek shelter
at
Fazakerly Army Barracks with my brother
George
who is a sergeant there. It's the break-up
of our marriage. I'm so ashamed of
my face.
George brings my food to my room.'
I think about my parent's separation.
I
think about my loneliness as a child.
Tears
course down my cheeks. God! I mustn't
let
Hal see me like this. It must be the
alcohol
affecting me. I see a box of paper
tissues
and dry my eyes.
When Hal is called in from playing in the street
at night, it isn't the end of the fun
for
him. Hal has brothers and sisters to
talk
to – to play with. I just have my Mam
and
my little dog Blackie and an ancient wireless. The crudely
made wireless has huge glass valves
and is
powered by a glass accumulator. It's
one
of my jobs to carry the heavy accumulator
to a backyard shop in distant street.
It
needs re-charging every week. It always
fades
when you are listening to something
interesting.
It's now nine-thirty. We decide to
walk to
the British Legion Club. Hal declares that being a Friday night
it will probably be quiet, but neither
of
us is looking for a wild night. We
finish
our drinks and walk out into the balmy
air.
He deliberately leads me through some
of
the rougher areas of Halton Brook in order I can see the social problems.
I'm already aware of them, for during
my
time with Wimpey Homes, I've been the Sales Manager for Urban Renewal department , so I'm well aware of the problems all over
the North West. We hurry on in the
yellow
sodium glare of the tall street lamps.
The
booming voices of rowdy young men echo
around
the deserted, boarded-up shopping arcades.
Tin cans, propelled by the wind,
rattle to their rest down concrete
slopes.
Distant dogs bark. Groups of leg-swinging
pimpled-faced youths sit on low
walls
and hurl puerile catcalls at the passing
girls.
I momentarily close my eyes and am
transported
back fifty years. The noises, the smells
are the same as of yore – it's only
my old
friend and I have changed.
Up and down the concrete paths we walk,
then
through extensive grassy knolls and
areas of trees and shrubs. Suddenly
we come
to the edge of our arboreal world -
nan urban
abyss stretches before us. . We stand
and
look at the cars and lorries that plunge
headlong through the concrete cicatrix
that
forms the ravine of the freeway below.
A thin, elegant, slightly arched
bridge with delicate and intricate
wrought-iron
ornamentation beckons us forward. We
launch
ourselves over the thin, curving steel
arc
and glance down nervously at the streaming
traffic. It's as if we're part of an
enormous,
modern willow pattern plate. We are
two figures
silhouetted against the moon, caught
in time's
drollery on the arch of a bridge. Where
is
the third missing figure I muse? Is
it my
long dead baby brother Frank? I catch
up
with Hal, who has got a little bit
ahead.
'I wonder what my brother Frank would
be
like if he had lived Hal? Would he
be with
us tonight on this bridge?'
Hal stops and waits for me.
'Wouldn't it be great if our Billie[4]
was
here with us too?' Hal replies.
We continue walking in silence for
a while.
‘I remember some more now,’ announces Hal.
‘We grow up a bit, our parents allow us more
freedom in the street, which is very
important
to me. As we grow, a certain amount
of sibling
rivalry grows with us. This squabbling
is
particularly sharp between Bill, Georgie,
and me, who are the ones nearest in
age to
each other. However, what we fight
about
– I don't know, but it's almost a daily
thing.
Our parents try to referee all this,
but
with kids, you can never resolve what
makes
them tick. It's all much ado about
nothing!
Then – to get away from it we find
– the
street! The street is the escape –
somewhere
we go to play.
Now we are beginning to broaden our
horizons.
Explore a little. Go to the top of
the street.
Go to the bottom of the street. Look
at the
other kids – see where they live. I
notice
Roy Lello. He's a handsome, fair-haired
boy.
black eyes, one of two children. His
mother
seems to be quite a lot older than
usual.
She is a fat lady with a squint in
one eye.
She has the unlikely name of Tina.
She dotes
on Roy. Roy has an older brother called
Tommy,
who later gets TB, but survives. Roy
is always
well dressed – good shoes and all the
rest
of it.
There's another little kid across the
street
– used to be a bit stand-offish. His
mother
calls him Jud. I think he looks kind
of like
a gypsy. Later I find out he's dark
because
he's Welsh - a Celt. He's dark, serious
faced,
quite sharp faced, with little tin
glasses.
Even then I thought ‘What’s the matter
with
him – he has a chip on his shoulder
– and
that’s a funny name – Jud. Well, I
don't
see him for a bit.
But Roy with the nice clean face, the
laughing
black eyes, and the nice shoes – I
get to
know quite well. got to know another
kid
from the top end – an Irish family
– there
seems to be millions of kids coming
and going
– that is the Carrols. They are dirt
poor
Catholics who are strange to us. I'm
a Protestant.
Every Sunday they march off somewhere.
It's
a mystery where they are going. Later
we
find out they're going to mass at the
local
Catholic Church.’
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| Halton British Legion Club |
Hal and I have reached our destination. We've
arrived at a small village centre.
Perhaps
it's the original Halton Village before the ever-growing urban monster of
Runcorn New Town swamped it. Before I've the chance to ask
if this is the case, my friend stops
his
story telling and taking me by the
elbow
helps me across the busy road.
Outside the British Legion, a girl plays with a yo-yo. Hal borrows
it from her and has a few trial attempts.
We all laugh. It makes us both feel
young
again.
We enter the club and find the door
is temporarily
unmanned. The doorman spots us and
waves
us through - knowing that honest Hal
will
return later to the door and pay our
entrance-fees
- which he does. We walk right through
to
the bar and into the concert room.
The club is only a third full, but
most people
nod or smile at Hal. He's obviously
well
known. The majority of the customers
are
middle aged like us. It makes us feel
at
home. It's comforting to be surrounded
by
ones peers. There are not the same
tensions
in the air. There's a predictability
which
is satisfying and which suggests security.
The people we're among have had the
same
heartaches as us. They've experienced
the
sadness of separation and loss and
seen the
changes in the world we've seen.
Like all a Legion clubs, the surrounding
walls display the badges of the major
British
regiments and corps. I look for my
Gloucestershire Regiment but can't see it.
In 1952, in order to escape the slums
and
the hopelessness, I join The Gloucestershire Regiment of the British Army. The regiment has just
returned from Korea. I am seventeen
and a
half at the time. In the Army, I am
a barman
in the Officer's Mess. The regiment
is posted
to Egypt, and there am I serving chilled
champagne to a background of palm-trees
and
camels for three years. It's valuable
experience,
in that I pick up a lot by watching
how the
middle-class officers behave and interact
when they were off-duty and having
a drink.
On leaving the Army as a sergeant in
1955,
it's back to the slums.
Some men in the Legion Club wear smart
black
blazers with a gold wire army badge
on the
breast. The pianist is quite an old
man,
but a good player. The accompanist,
a thin
stooping man, scrapes absent-mindedly
on
a drum with a brush-stick.
Hal's a good conversationalist and
initiates
conversation with many of the couples
on
the adjacent tables. We sit and watch
the
dancers gyrate on the floor below.
One older
couple gets up to dance before anyone
else
and dominate the floor thereafter.
‘Go on with your reminiscences if you don't
mind.’ I plead.
‘Are you sure you're not bored by it?’ he enjoins, tapping the bottom of his empty
pint glass on the tabletop.
‘Sorry, ' I answer, 'I get the hint – it's my round.'
When I return to our table, Hal resumes
his
tale.
‘Well, gradually we get to know all
the other
kids in the street, whom I'm sure you
will
remember. There's Norman Chambers,
Brian
Blackler, Albert Carrol and his two
younger
brothers John and Frankie Carrol. There's
also a big kid - Raymond Trafford is
his
name. There's another posh kid called
Peter
O’Neil. We slowly get to know them
all. There
are times when we can't wait to gobble
our
meals down, so we can get out in the
street
again to see them. And what about the
conditions
we grow up in?
I don't know we're poor, because everyone
else has the same as us – virtually
nothing.
We play more street games and become
more
skilful at them. I remember one time;
we're
all huddled in the shelter in the playground
at Gwladys Street School. There's a
daylight
air raid going on. It's on a sunny
afternoon.
The teacher's try to distract us from
the
frightening noise of the guns and the
bombs
outside. We are singing, ‘Ten green
bottles
hanging on the wall.’ Later when the
raid
stops we all go home.
Sometimes in the middle of the night,
we're
suddenly awakened in a kind of supercharged
atmosphere. Everyone is panicking and
we
hear the bangs and the guns going off.
We
hear the evil roar of the German bombers
coming over heading for the docks.
Then they're
over the docks and we hear the crump,
crump,
and crump, of explosions down in Bootle.
Mam hurries us all down the cellar
with
blankets into the specially re-enforced
coalhole,
and we lay them on the coal and huddle
down.
We hear the shrapnel skittering down
the
slate roofs. Although we aren't fully
aware
of what's going on, we know it's a
life and
death situation. We wait until we hear
the
whine of the ALL CLEAR and then we
climb
up the cellar steps again and Mam puts
the
kettle on.
NOTES.
[1] Connie-onnie. Condensed milk.
[2] Lily Chavez. Now called Lily Martinez. She's to visit my home 50 years later in
1997.
(3) Crease's Music Shop on Walton Road, was owned
by the Beatles' ill-fated manager
Brian Epstein's
family
[4] Billie McDonald tragically died
of kidney
disease in his late thirties.
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