One of the drawbacks of meeting old friends
– I mean really old friends – is that
the
memories that they engender can be
bitter
as well as sweet. Ah, yes! I know that
time
erases many painful recollections.
Other
things are too bitter to recall. If
I'm honest,
my whole childhood is traumatic and
psychologically
painful. Like I said, the remembrances
are
sweet and sour.
I've been looking
forward
to seeing my childhood friend Hal McDonald
for a long time, and now I'm on my
way to
visit him. Hal lives in the Halton
Brook
district of Runcorn, a sprawling new
town
that acts as an overflow for Liverpool’s
teeming population. The conurbation
is a
planner’s dream and a visitor's nightmare.
It looks fine on paper. Wide, fast,
arterial
roads loop around the islands of modern
housing.
Elegant, filigree pedestrian bridges
arch
over the expressways like the synapses
of
some vast cortex and join the separate
communities
into a semblance of corporate unity.
I drive slowly along the complicated
road
system, eyes alert for a last-minute
road
sign that will point me in the right
direction
for Halton Brook. Except for once,
we haven't
seen each other for nearly fifty years.
A year ago, we've made
contact after a long break. Hal has spotted
me on a TV show and contacted the company
for my telephone number. He'd come to my
home in South Lancashire. Now he's returned
the invitation. Clare says she doesn't mind
me going. Hal says I can stay the night,
He's alone for a couple of weeks. His wife
Cathy's gone to Ireland for a holiday with
some female friends.
As I draw nearer to the area where
he lives,
my mind goes back over the events of
the
past. In the spyglass of my memory,
Hal and
I are snotty-nosed kids again. We stand
together
in the street, eyes screwed up, scowling
into the pale sun, dressed in our unravelled
gansie[i][1] pullovers. We have short
pants
below our knees and long, crumpled
woollen
knee-stockings in their usual position
-
around our ankles. We look like two
strange
sepia figures from a photographic history
book of mid-twentieth century working
class
Liverpool.
We're raised in the same poor street in the
Walton area of Liverpool, situated
in the
shadow of the Everton Football Club.
Hal
and I attend the same school, sit side
by
side at the same desk. We drink our
government
handout milk from half-pint bottles
with
their cardboard tops - the ones that
splash
you when you push down the top. We
both eat
jam-butties at dinnertime.
Immigrant Welsh Jerry-builders have
constructed
the terraced houses in the last years
of
the 19th century. The two Welsh brothers
who finance and build these rows of
battery-hen
habitations, wish to be remembered
- even
immortalised - by these crumbling bathless
hovels. Subsequently the fourteen streets
they build are awarded names whose
initial
letter spells out the first names of
these
entrepreneurial Welshmen. Their names
are
revealed for the judgement of posterity
in
an infamous acrostic - Owen and William.
The houses in our street have a bay
window
to the front and three steep steps
that lead
to a stout wooden door. Usually the
door
is painted the same colour as the windowsills
and frames. It's either a muddy brown
or
a dark olive green. The side of the
street,
which gets the sun, has peeling paintwork.
The surfaces on the sunless side are
smooth
and cool. The women of the street keep
these
steps scrupulously clean. They scrub
them
daily on their hands and knees. They
rub
them with sandstone stolen from the
graveyard
spoil, or with a special whitening
block
called donkey stone. They obtain this
compacted
lime briquette from the ragman. The
ragman
pushes his barrow down the street every
week.
His street-cry of 'Aunt Salleeee!'
brings
the women streaming from the houses.
They
ply him with rags, and are rewarded
with
a donkey stone or jug-full of Aunt
Sally.
.[2] He dips his jug into the barrel
of slimy
liquid and pours it into the proffered
empty
milk bottle. It's pink and sweet smelling,
but it burns your skin.
The females of the street have a pride
in
the appearance of the front steps.
This self-respect
breeds a spirit of competition. The
women
make them gleam. The others look down
upon
a woman who has dirty steps. It's quite
usual
for some house-fronts to be scrubbed
right
across the pavement to the gutter.
Above
each door is a semi-circular fanlight.
The
inhabitants of the street position
cheap
china figurines in this small window.
Look!
Here we see a figure of a whistling
boy,
there an Alsatian dog. Over here, a
pottery
boy holds up a bowl in which real disconsolate
fish swim. A chipped, moulded, dusty
figure
of a lad fishes with a bent pin into
a bowl.
Anaemic goldfish swivel sad eyes at
passers-by
and swim out their sad circular lives.
Another familiar figurine is of a girl. She
wears a voluminous dress, blowing in
the
wind. Her bare arms outstretched, she
holds
a straining Collie dog on a lead with
one
hand, and a wide-brimmed bonnet to
her head
with other. The ceramic images reflect
a
lost rural idyll. The street people
are the
descendants of Irish and Welsh peasants
who
stream away from the green fields and
hill
farms to find work in the grimy expanding
industrial Port of Liverpool in the
mid nineteenth
century. Some fanlights boast the well-known
Staffordshire dogs placed either side.
They
gaze at each other in perpetual admiration.
There are other variations, but I forget.
As you enter the front door, you can see
the stairs straight ahead of you. The
narrow
lobby or hall leads to a room on the
right,
(to the left if the house is a mirror
image.)
It's known as the Parlour. This is
a receiving
room, a room where you deal with the
rent
man or the insurance man, or posh visitors.
If you are a Catholic, this is the
room where
you receive the priest when he calls
for
the coins that you leave on the end
of the
sideboard for him. The room has an
enclosed
glass fronted cupboard. The best china
is
displayed here - never to be used!
Sometimes
there's a piano. The next door on the
right
leads to the kitchen. It isn't really
a kitchen
- it's the place where the family live
and
spend most of the time. This room has
a black
cast iron fireplace with a coal fire
burning
in a large open grate. Mam cleans the
grate
every week with black Zebo Polish.
It makes
it gleam. It has an oven, and a large
kettle
is always on station half on and half
off
the flames. My little eighteen-month-old
brother Frank pulls this kettle of
boiling
water all over himself and is scalded
to
death. High over the fireplace is a
wooden
mantelpiece. It's always dusty. There's
a
jug on this shelf where Mam puts the
rent
money for safety. Another door in the
kitchen
leads to the back kitchen. This small
room
is where the meals are cooked on a
gas cooker.
There's a large stone sink with a single
cold water tap. There's no hot water
supply.
The big kettle in the kitchen is the
hot
water provider. Attached to the ceiling,
in front of the fire, is a slatted
clothes
maiden. It's lowered from its place
above
and loaded with damp washing, then
raised
on squeaky pulleys to drip on the occupants
below.

There's a door in the back kitchen that leads
down steep stone steps into the cellar. In
the cellar is a square brick-built structure
with an inverted dome-shaped boiler. It has
a small iron door at the front where you
put the coal in to heat the water. This is
where the family laundry is done. The cellar
also contains a dolly-tub and a wooden dolly-peg.
The clothes are dunked and twisted by hand
with this three-legged wooden prodder, like
the action of some primitive washing machine.
The cellar also includes a small narrow passage
with a circular grid above. Shafts of light
strike down through holes in the grid into
the blackness, and motes of coal dust sparkle
and glitter in the miniature solar spotlights.
This is where the coalman drops his bags
of coal. In 1939 the council workers come
and put some steel pillars in the coalhole
as a makeshift air raid shelter. It makes
it very difficult to shoulder ones way past
the posts to get at the coal, but even more
difficult to negotiate the way back as it
is impossible to turn around. It is necessary
to back up over the lumps of coal in the
constricted space in the dark - for there's
no light in the cellar. The floors of the
houses are clad in linoleum. Rugs fashioned
from cut-up old clothes and blankets lie
scattered about. Every door has a draught-sausage,
or stuffed ladies stocking to keep out the
cold blasts. In the back kitchen, a door
leads to the backyard. At the bottom of the
whitewashed yard, there's a lavatory with
a plank of wood with a round hole. The toilet
paper hangs on a loop of string on a rusty
nail. It's newspaper torn into squares. In
winter, it's very cold in the toilet and
you have to put an overcoat on to pay a visit.
On the yard wall hangs a galvanised bath.
It has formed a white residue of powdery
dry soap on its metallic, pitted, inner surface,
which scratches you when you have a bath.
There's no bathroom. There's no hot
running
water. There's no electricity. There's
no
fridge. The house is illuminated by
gas,
which casts a yellow light. The fabric
gas
mantles are very delicate and disintegrate
at the slightest touch. The gas lamp
emits
a quavering wheezing hiss. The people
who
live in the street who want a real
bath have
to walk a mile to Queen's Drive Public
Baths.
Not many people can afford this luxury.
You
pay four pence, (extra two pence for
a towel
and soap,) and sit and wait on long
brown
benches. The people before you slowly
disappear
into the warm steamy inner sanctum.
Gradually
you slide up the bench nearer to the
door.
After sometimes a couple of hours,
it's your
turn and the big fat woman calls out-
' NEXT!'
In my minds eye I can still see a swirl
of bleary-eyed, half-laughing, half-crying
working class faces, just before midnight,
on New Years Eve many years ago. Local
people
congregate in a drunken melee in the
middle
of the thoroughfare, at the junction
of Spellow
Lane and Walton Road.
It's somewhat touching that the crowds
assemble
over the spot that was once the site
of an
underground Ladies and Gents Public
Toilet.
During the notorious May Blitz of 1941,
hundreds of people are killed by a
German
bomb, which drops straight down the
entrance
steps to the toilets. Most of them
had been
drinking and singing in the bright
saloon
bar of the Royal Oak pub. It proves
to be
the revellers last dash for shelter.
The
rescuers retrieve most of the bodies,
but
fragments of flesh and bone remain
and are
bulldozed over. Traces of the merrymakers
lie forever in the ammonia soaked earth,
amongst the fragments of broken urinal
stones
and toilet bowls. Whether the crowds
who
escaped extinction are conscious of
the significance
of the ground, which lies under their
dancing
feet I'll never know. Maybe they do,
but
they prefer not to think about it.
Perhaps
they accept the reality of what has
happened.
Are they rejoicing that it has happened
to
somebody else and not to them? Indeed,
had
the wind been blowing slightly more
strongly,
or in another direction, it might have
been
them.
If the German bomb-aimer had taken
another
draw on his cigarette before he pushed
the
button, it might be gobbets of their
own
flesh and slivers of their own bone
supporting
the dancing feet.
Now, as I drive nearer and nearer to
Hal's
house, after more than fifty years,
the celebrant
survivors are there before my eyes
again.
I can see the brutalised expressions,
the
slobbery kisses, the exhibitionist
cavortings,
the maudlin sentimentality. In spite
of the
war, irrespective of the bombing, they
prance
again their fretful hour on the darkened
stage of those foggy, cavorting streets.
They have escaped the virulent diseases
that
remain unconquered at the time - they
have
survived to live another year - another
war
- another year in their drab, forlorn
lives.
I look back now; it brings a lump to
my throat.
Most of them have gone now. Their yellowing
pictures in some forgotten album. They
were
decent hardworking people - folk whom
fate
had dealt a raw deal. They deserved
better,
but they didn't get it.
I change gear and draw up to observe
a red
light. A stream of traffic hurtles
past.
Except for the different colours, the
cars
look all the same to me. When I'm young,
the various makes of cars were recognisably
different. The lights change and I
accelerate
away. I pass through a street of Tudor
style
buildings. A crazy dog runs to the
pavement
edge and snaps at my nearside front
tyre.
I think about the street again. I reach
into
the glove compartment and get a boiled
sweet.
I glance at my watch and suck thoughtfully
on the mint imperial.
My mind scrolls backward. It's a few
years
ago. I stand with my American friends
Lily
Chavez*[3] and Ema. Me and two Americans
looking at the house where I was born
and
raised - the property in which I'd
lived
my nights and days until I'm twenty-one
years
of age. The fatherless house where
Lily's
food-parcels arrived in those far off
poverty
days long ago. The house we spy is
packed
with ghosts of my former life. My mother,
my childhood, the overnight penny-in-the-oven
to bring me luck in the important examination
for Grammar School - that I failed!
The Boy's
Brigade, the smell of 'Brasso'.[4],
my little
long dead dog Blackie.
I stand with the American visitors
in that
bright sunshine. Their eyes observe,
but
don't see. Before me, on her knees
my phantom
mother scrubs the steps. A tear runs
down
my cheek. Invisible spirits with grinning
smiles debouch from my former existence.
Shadowy wraiths with familiar faces
perform
a dumb-show valse-memoire around me.
A feeling
like hunger grips my frame and compresses
my belly. It's a yearning - a sickly
hankering
and longing for times gone by. I think
of
Marcel Proust. Why, like him, am I
so controlled
by the powerful forces of regression?
Why
am I so moved and intrigued by the
anonymous
faces I see on old newsreels and old
photographs?
Is it that I'm part of some connective
matrix
of strong emotion with times gone by?
Why
do I record the present in such obsessional
detail and concern for the useless
dead ephemeral
of time's detritus? My mother - lurches
back
from The Red Brick alehouse, a little
the
worse for drink. I hate her beery kisses,
the false bonhomie, and the rank smell
of
tobacco. Now I reach out for her. Oh!
If
only I could hold her again! I squirm
with
a mixture of guilt and regret!
I turn on my car radio and music blasts
out. There's a pub. It's the one that
Hal
told me to look out for, when he gave
me
the directions. As I swing the wheel
and
the car enters Hal's estate, I realise
that
my poor Mum - after working at a sewing
machine
all week in a dark satanic mill - needed
a release, needed a break from the
humiliation,
the de-feminisation. The daily factory
grind
that stole her youth! Poor, poor, Mam.
My mother, Annie, did not have a very
enjoyable
life. She's born into the British industrial
working class in 1904. Annie's origins
are
not exactly an ideal launch pad for
a successful
and rewarding life! Many overcome the
lack
of educational opportunity and make
something
of themselves, but the majority sink
back
into a mire of hopelessness for lack
of stimulation
and encouragement. Her mind seems to
stop
developing when she is seventeen. She
passes
through a period in her early teens
when
she's receiving input (mainly the poetry
of Thomas Hood and Robert Burns) from
her
father, Hugh. It all fades away. Her
intellectual
horizons shrink back, ossify, and remain
so, ever after. She has a philosophical
position
that sees the 'toffs' as inherently
superior.
She's an expert on the genealogical
intricacies
of our raddled[5] Royal family. She
can still
recite a poem eulogising the German
Kaiser,
that our pre-1914 - 1918 war schoolchildren
were forced to learn 'parrot-fashion'.
She
learns the poem in her school in Hull
in
about
1912, when the relationship between
the
British empire and Germany is one of
warmth,
and before the horror of the first
world
war is unleashed. This goodwill is
principally
engendered by the close family links
between
the various European monarchies; mainly
due
to the proliferation of Queen Victoria’s
numerous relations and many descendants.
In 1914 of course, the warmth between
the
two nations turns to extreme hatred,
and
some maintain that it has never returned.
She's capable of remembering every
word
of this poem in her ninety-third year,
except
for most of the last verse.
In order to trace the source of the
poem,
I write to Pam Ayres who has her own
radio
show on BBC Two. I ask if any of her
listeners
might be able to provide the name of
the
poet and the missing words, and help
round
off what is a beautiful, historically
interesting,
(if somewhat overly sentimental) ballad.
One of her listeners, who owns a compendium
of Edwardian poetry finds the piece
and sends
it to me. Here it is:
The Kaiser’s Questions.
| The Kaiser.[6] went to the orphanage, upon
a summer's day,
And the children braided their
flaxen hair
and tied it with ribbon gay;
They tied it with ribbons pink
and blue
and each wore her dress of white
And the Kaiser said he thought
no man could
see a lovelier sight.
He took his plumed hat off his
head, and
the children curtsied low;
“God bless you children dear,”
he said,
“and make you in wisdom grow,”
Then he called to his side a
blue-eyed maid,
as fair as a child could be,
He said, “Come stand thou here,
pretty maid,
and answer me questions three
“This lily so pure and white
and sweet -
to what kingdom does it belong?”
“To the vegetable kingdom Sire,”
- and her
voice was like a song.
“And this little harp of purest
gold?” (He
showed her a mimic lyre).
She looked up with a smile, and
said, “To
the mineral kingdom Sire.”
“Now tell me, my clever little
maid, to
what kingdom do I belong?”
She thought of lions, and cows,
and sheep
- the animal sure is wrong.
And with a still and solemn air
she said
- “I think to the kingdom of
heaven.”
The Kaiser looked up, and then
he looked
down, and his eyes were full
of tears.
“The kingdom of heaven dwells,”
he said,
“in a child of tender years.”
|
Nowadays, children are encouraged to grasp
an overview of a subject matter, rather
than
concentrate on the isolated components
of
a genre. Today of course, less emphasis
is
placed on learning by rote. Powers
of recall
are not considered of great value,
and this
makes my mother's achievement all the
more
incredible!
Not everybody has the same chances
in life.
Not everybody is blessed (or burdened,)
with
that grim determination to succeed.
She's living here with us up until she dies
in 1997 aged 93 years old. She has her own
room, so she has her privacy. We have a nurse
who comes in every morning and bathes her,
which is a great help. She's no trouble to
care for and she's very good with Cameron
who is just a small baby. She sits in her
room, rocking his chair for hours on end.
Twenty years ago she developed a Hiatus Hernia,
so she has not eaten solid food for all that
time. She survives on those special vitamin-packed
drinks, which ironically may have been responsible
for her great age, as normally she would
probably have not received all the nutriments
and protein from her usual diet.
She's certainly a child of her time,
and
I suppose it's easy to criticise her
failings.
Now I'm older I understand. I loved
her dearly.
Oh! If only one could turn back the
clock!
I stop at a red light. Then I experience
another flash back. I'm there again
with
my American visitors. They stand there
uncomprehendingly
looking at the frontage of the house
in that
mean street. They're somewhat disconsolate.
They shift from foot to foot. We pose
for
photographs. 'What are we expected
to say?'
One of them sighs. 'We can hardly say
- It's
an interesting slum!'
Flecks of rain spot the windscreen.
I switch
on the wipers. The pale sun has disappeared.
Dark clouds scud across a sullen sky.
I think
about Clare and my two small sons.
I crest
a hill a see the River Mersey spread
out
below me. A vast winding ribbon of
pewter.
Hal moved out to this town fourteen
years
ago. I think about the vast expanse
of time
that flows backwards to the street
and Hal.
I start to think about my father. My
father
John Owen Evans is born on 15 Sep 1906
in
Liverpool. He dies on Monday 4 January
1971
in South London. He's cremated on Thursday
7 January 1971 in London.
Dad is brought up in very poor circumstances.
His mother Georgina Evans (nee Bourne)
is
a hotel maid, and his father, (also
called
John Evans,) is occupied in the tanning
trade.
The family lives in Rockingham Street,
which
is located off Stanley Road in a poor
area
of Liverpool. He's the eldest of six
children.
He has a brother George, as well as
four
sisters - Ginny, Aggie, Minnie and
May. The
last named May - or Edna May to give
her
correct name is illegitimate. When
the father
of the family - John senior returns
from
soldiering in the First World War,
he discovers
the child, and throws out his wife
Georgina.
She flees to Blackpool and goes back
to her
hotel work, leaving the unfortunate
ex-soldier
with six children, one of which isn't
his
own child. Of course he can't cope
with the
children and hold down his job as a
warehouseman
at the same time, and the children
are taken
into care and sent to the Leyfield
Convent
in Honeysgreen Lane, West Derby.
In 1920, my father John and his younger
brother George get into trouble over
swinging
on a shop-blind in Stanley road, and
the
young boys are hauled up before the
Stipendary
Magistrate. John, being fourteen and
the
older of the pair is given the opportunity
of either going to Borstal or joining
the
army. Perhaps unsurprisingly, he chooses
the latter, and soon after he signs
on as
a drummer-boy in The Royal Welch Fusiliers
whose regimental HQ is at Wrexham in
North
Wales. A short time later he finds
himself
on board a ship to India, where he
is to
remain for twelve years serving in
Karachi,
Bombay, and the Khyber Pass area.
After appearing before the magistrates
my
father's brother, George elects to
go down
the mine in 1921 at the age of thirteen.
He then finds a job in a Blackpool
garage.
He's seventeen by that time. On his
return
to Liverpool, he lives with Aunt Sal
in the
Barlow's Lane area, [off Bradewell
Street].
Subsequently he joins the same regiment
as
my father - The Royal Welch Fusiliers,
and
goes out to India where they meet up.
My
father and George return to Liverpool
from
India in 1933.
My Dad's now a civilian again and unemployed.
My mother works as a machinist in the
Dunlop
Rubber Company sewing the uppers for
canvass
footwear. They live together for six
years
but after parting, they are to remain
married
all their lives, for my mother refuses
to
give him the divorce he so badly wants.
The tragic death of my brother Frank
at
the age of two years is a major contributory
factor in the break-up of my parent's
marriage.
The unfortunate, inquisitive Frankie
pulls
a kettle of boiling water over his
chest
from its permanent position on the
hob. He's
been left unsupervised in the small
kitchen,
which doubles as a living room. My
parents
haven't provided a barrier to avoid
such
an accident. It's an accident waiting
to
happen. They're both guilty of gross
neglect
by any standard of judgement. A fireguard
could have been obtained very cheaply.
There
are plenty of cheap second-hand ones
available
on practically every street corner.
If things
are so bad that they can't even afford
a
used guard, then the kettle should
have been
removed from its position near the
glowing
coals. Alternatively, one or other
of the
partners should have watched the child
like
a hawk.
With the child covered in a blanket,
my
desperate and frantic father runs the
mile
and a half to Walton Hospital. There's
no
time to try to find a telephone box,
and
there are no taxis to be hailed. It's
to
no avail - when my panting father arrives
at the hospital his baby is dead in
his arms.
The Death Certificate reads:
'Death from pneumonia following scalding
to the chest.'
The date of this dreadful catastrophe
is
16 September 1936. The whole episode
is appalling,
with mutual blame and recrimination.
In early
1939, my Dad rejoins the army. The
marriage
is over. Having no father is like living
in the middle of a void. There's a
painful
vacuum. It's no use pretending otherwise.
I try to brave it out. I claim to my
little
friends that I don't need a Dad – but
I damn
well do!
At the outbreak of the World War in
September
of 1939, when I'm four years old, I'm
evacuated
to the countryside of Worcestershire,
which
is a beautiful rural area in the centre
of
England. Clutching my gas mask, I'm
taken
by train with my school-children friends
to the small market town of Tenbury
Wells,
where I'm lodged for six years. My
mother
has to remain in Liverpool to work.
I don't
see her for four years.
I'm very lonely with my foster parents
Charlie
and Louisa Horton. Charlie's the head
gardener
at Burford Gardens, which is owned
by Lord
Whitbread of the brewing family. I
miss my
Mam dreadfully and don't understand
why I've
been sent away from her. When I feel
sad
I go and sit by the Roman Weir*[7]
which
is on the River Teme behind Burford
Church.
I return to Liverpool when the war
ends
to a broken home. My parents have separated,
and my mother brings me up alone. This
is
a great economic struggle for her.
My Dad goes off and lives in Oxford
with
another woman. I don't see him and
am not
reconciled with him for over twenty
years.
My Dad died years ago, but I miss him
still.
He's out of reach. Death has moved
him away
again – just out of range – just when
I got
used to touching him again.
I live with my Mum in Eton Street and
Hal
lives over the road with his Mum and
Dad
and seven siblings. It's just after
the end
of World War Two. Things are very cold,
grey,
dreary and tough in Britain. Food is
scarce
and clothing is almost impossible to
buy.
Money is extremely short, especially
for
people like my hard-working mother,
who's
bringing up a child on her own. When
you're
a kid, you accept things just as they
are.
When you get older and travel around
a bit
you examine your childhood environment
critically.
You see it for what it really is. In
our
case – Hal and I agree – It's a slum!
Hal’s Dad is a Liverpool docker. Early
in
the morning, you can see him walking
down
the street. He has a curved pipe clenched
between his jaws. On his head, he wears
shiny
flat cap. It's flat because he carries
bales
of cotton on his head. Over his shoulder
hangs an old army bag. It contains
his carrying
out. *[8] His docker’s hook hangs from
his
belt. It looks sinister like the pirate
captain's
in Peter Pan.
Hal’s mother stands in the doorway
in her
flowery pinnie, watching her husband
disappear
into the early morning fog. For a moment,
he stands at the bottom of the street
on
the corner by the Red Brick pub. He
doffs
his cap and waves it at the distant
figure.
Then he's gone. A small stout woman
with
pale blue eyes, Mrs. Mac's figure is
bent
with the burdens of raising a large
family.
In her youth, she has a fine voice.
She appears in a singing role as an
amateur
on the local music hall – the Rotunda
Theatre
in Scotland road. There are singsongs
in
the Macs' front parlour. They gather
at Christmas,
on birthdays, on sad days, on happy
days,
at funerals, at weddings. When the
Macs'
have a party in their front parlour
there's
a lot to drink. Hal’s Mum stands by
the piano
and sings a medley of those moving,
meaningful
songs of the Great War and the twenties
and
early thirties. Her voice at this time
is
a shrill vibrato, but she hits the
right
notes and displays an assurance that
indicates
more than a passing familiarity with
the
lyrics.
There's Roses of Picardy and The Sunshine
of Your Smile, and especially My mother’s
Eyes.
'My mother’s pearls,' Were her boys
and
her girls, I found in them my mother’s
eyes.'
She warbles -
Everybody in those immediate post-war
days
has his or her song. Some people recited
a poem, others played a tune with two
spoons
clicked against their knees. The words
impart
some meaning into their flickering,
ephemeral
lives.
'Give us YOUR song!' Those long dead
voices
shout.
'You made me love you...'
'It had to be you...'
'I'll be loving you...'
'You load sixteen ton...'
'If ever a devil was born...'
'By the light, of the silvery moon…'
Now time has stilled the voices, never
to
sing again.
There are eight McDonald children.
Elsie
is the eldest girl. She's my favourite.
To
me she has a look of a film star called
Jeannette
McDonald. Elsie has big blue eyes and
coiffured,
Marcel-waved hair. *[9] She eventually
marries
a dark, handsome sailor called Matt.
They
get a house is Nesfield Street off
Sleeper’s
Hill. Bob who's the second eldest and
the
tallest of the family follows her.
Later
Bob will kill himself. He's driven
mad by
the vivid memories of the wartime carnage
he has witnessed as a sailor on an
Aircraft
Carrier with the Pacific Fleet. Poor
Bob
puts his head in the gas-oven and commits
suicide to escape from the mental torment.
The memory of seeing his mates torn
to pieces
by bullets from the Japanese planes
had become
too much to bear any longer. Hal finds
his
brother's body in the back kitchen.
He'd
attached a rubber pipe to the cooker
and
shoved it down his throat. Hal has
to break
the news to his Mam. Mrs. Mac never
gets
over the tragedy.
Then comes Walter, who's a sprightly,
confident
man with tight, clingy wavy hair that
looks
as if it has been Marcel-waved like
his sister's.
He's straight as a ramrod both in character
and physique. There's another girl
whose
name is Agnes. She's very fair and
slim.
I can see her now with her Mrs Miniver.[10]
hairstyle and dressed in frocks with
padded
‘forties-style shoulders.
Jenny, the youngest girl is very pretty
with huge brown eyes and shoulder-
length
hair. She's endowed with the loveliest,
laziest
winning smile that you ever did see.
Billie
is very small as a lad and hated being
called
'Titch' at school. Billie is a couple
of
years older than Hal and me, but he
includes
us in his gang of ragamuffins. When
he joins
the army, he suddenly shoots up in
height.
He also shoots up the promotion ladder
very
rapidly becoming a sergeant after only
three
years. It's a terrible tragedy when
Billie
dies of a kidney complaint in his early
thirties.
He leaves a young wife and children.
Then
there's Hal. George is the youngest.
Always
a quiet withdrawn lad, he remains a
bachelor
all his life. He's the one who remains
in
67 Eton Street when all the other birds
have
flown the nest and his Mum and Dad
have passed
away. Even today, he hasn't moved far
away.
He lives in a flat in nearby Langham
Street.
Hal, Billie and me join The Lifeboys[11]
together at the local County Road Methodist
Church. Looking back now, it proves
a lifelong
influence on our behaviour and outlook.
I
still remember the feel of the rough
wool
of the dark blue gansey and the coarse
feel
of the blancoed lanyard that hangs
around
our necks. The badge on our breasts
is a
brass life belt and we wear dark blue
sailor
hats with Lifeboys in gold on the hatband.
We meet twice a week. On Tuesdays it's
gym
night. We run around in circles and
jump
over the buck[12] and somersault onto
the
mats. The leader is an amiable, stout
woman
called Miss Brooke. She dresses in
square-shouldered
jackets and calf-length, dark, heavy
skirts
with flat, wide brogue shoes. She has
a round,
kind, and chubby face with dark whiskers
on her chin. She's authoritative, but
genial.
Her assistant is a shy, slight, mouse
of
a girl – obviously her lover. Why couldn’t
we see it then?
Later, at the age of twelve, we move
up
to the Boy’s Brigade. The discipline
is much
stricter. The leader is Captain Jones.
He
has one eye. His other eye is a glass
one
that never moves. He tells us that
a Japanese
soldier stuck a knife in his other
eye because
Captain Jones spilled some soup on
his uniform.
Captain Jones leaves all the hands-on
work
to his lieutenants, Lt. Farragher,
Lt. Naylor,
Lt. Brindle and six-foot-six Lt. Henry
Thurston
who lives in our street. Henry Thurston's
house is on the same side as Hal's,
the sunny
side.
Oh! Yes, there's second-in-command
Captain
Oliphant as well. We attend a sports
night
and a drill night. The discipline is
quite
tough, and any boy who messes around
too
much is kicked out. We have a Church
Parade
on Sunday mornings. We march around
the area
with a band of bugles and drums. Everyone
is envious of the bass drummer with
his leopard-skin
tabard.
In the afternoon, we attend Bible Class,
and in the evening, we're expected
to attend
the church service.
We have many other little friends in
Eton
Street. I'll deliberately mention them,
for
I've a feeling that if I don't, they'll
be
irrevocably lost in the deep black
maw of
history and never heard of again. There's
Raymond Trafford, Alan Unwin, Tommy
and Roy
Lello, Albert and John Carrol, Alan
and John
Lee, Nicky Cusack, Jimmy Knowles, Norman
Chambers, John McDonald. The girls
in our
age group are - Betty Hengler, Gwladys
and
Muriel Boardman, Ann Fletcher, Vicky
Burt,
Josie Cusack.
A friend of mine who lives in Liverpool
sees a photograph of our street in
the Liverpool
Echo some time ago, and cuts it out
and sends
it to me. It is obviously shot from
the window
of the entertainment suite of the Everton
Football Club, where the manager, Joe
Kelly,
used to have his office in the old
days.
I remember that Nicky Cusack[13] once
threw
the pillow from his sister, Josie's,
doll's
pram up towards that window about 30
feet
above - it lodged on Kelly's window-sill
and remained there for twenty-three
years!
I look at the photograph. In the old
days,
there are hardly any cars to be seen
in the
street, (other than when there is a
football
match!) I see that the lampposts are
new.
The newspaper photograph could have
been
taken fifty years ago! Our street is
very
much like the street in the longest
running
British TV soap, Coronation Street.
Maybe
that is why I'm so much of a fan and
never
miss an episode.
Like Coronation Street, the street
is blessed
with many characters. Ninny Timewell
is a
bandy-legged, unmarried harridan, who's
always
chasing us if we play ball near her
house.
Jack Birt is a burly docker. He's habitually
drunk. On some days, he slides in and
out
of the bay windows as he navigates
his way
up the street on his way home from
work.
He grins one of his stupid lob-sided
smirks
at us kids. We whistle and laugh at
his shambling
figure. He tries to chase us and falls
drunkenly
to the ground. We dance around him
holding
hands. We sing the old children's nursery
rhyme.
'Ring a ring of roses, A pocket full
of
posies, Atishoo! Atishoo! We all fall
down.'
With that we all drop down and sit
with
him. The miscreant falls back and lies
snoring
within the circle of laughing children.
We know that yet another cargo of ship's
spirits has been broached. For the
last few
hours, he has been propping up the
bar in
some dock road pub. His long-suffering
wife,
Louisa, waits for him on the steps
and clouts
him round the ear as he staggers into
the
house. We feel sorry for his daughter,
Vicky.
She's mortified to witness her Dad's
ignominy.
It would have been funny if we had
not known
that Jack had boozed away all the housekeeping.
Soon after, my mother hears a knock
on the
door. A thin, desperate Mrs Burt is
on the
step. I hear my Mam commiserate with
her.
'Can I borrow a cup of sugar, luv?’
Says
Mrs Birt quietly.
Josie Whitty is the local femme fatale.
She's a huge-breasted frowsy, blonde-haired
woman with a heart of gold. Josie has
a penchant
for Yanks, and plenty of them! There
are
a hundred houses in the street and
we knew
everyone in them.
We play the usual street games familiar
to most urban children of the time.
Two of
the most popular ones are 'Al-lal-ee–oh,'
which is a chasing game and 'Film Stars'.
The rules of Film Stars are as follows.
The
child who's ‘In’ would throw a rubber
ball
at the wall opposite and shout the
initials
of a well-known film star’s name. For
example
E. F. The child who correctly guesses
Errol
Flynn has to catch the ball after it
hits
the ground and bounces, then shout
out the
initials of another. Of course, there's
Hide
& Seek and plenty of skipping and
bouncing-ball
games. Cricket and football are played
in
the street. Coats are used for goal
posts,
and chalk marks suffice for wickets.
Many are the sunlit afternoons and
echoing
twilights that we bat and kick away
our transient
childhood.
Notes:
[1] Gansie. Liverpool slang for a Guernsey pullover
[1]Aunt Sally. An early form of liquid soap
[3] Lily Chavez. Fifty years later I manage to trace her
through a Texan radio station. Later, in
1997 she comes to our home in the North of
England to visit us.
[4] Brasso. A liquid brass cleaner.
[5] Raddled. From the noun: Raddle - a red mineral for
rouging the cheeks. It is found in the Lancaster
area. The red coloured powder was also used
for colouring the front steps of houses red.
[6] Kaiser Wilhelm.
[7] Roman Weir. I have never checked as to the weir's Roman
origin. When I spoke to the then owner, Mr.
John Treasure in 1993, he said he believed
that the weir was of seventeenth century
vintage. I would like my ashes scattered
there after my death.
[8] 'Carrying out'. Packed lunch.
[9] An American system of perming hair
using
an intricate system of hot curling
tongs.
The effect was of a severely contoured
wave
which looked very artificial - almost
like
a wig
[10] Mrs. Miniver. Exemplary British middle class housewife
of a wartime film played by Greer Garson
[11] Lifeboys. A church based youth organisation for boys
aged 7 to 11.
[12] The buck. An artificial horse with two handholds
for physical exercises. [13] Nicky Cusack.
Died of alcoholism aged 43.
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