Evans Experientialism
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| WINDS OF HEAVEN. | ||||
`If we had never before looked upon the earth, but suddenly came to it man or woman grown, set down in the midst of a summer mead, would it not seem to us a radiant vision? The hues, the shapes, the song and life of birds, above all the sunlight, the breath of heaven, resting on it; the mind would be filled with its glory unable to grasp it, hardly believing that such things could be mere matter ... too beautiful to be long watched lest it should fade away.'from: 'Wild Flowers', The Open Air. | ||||
The window rattled, the gate swung; a leaf
rose, and the kitten chased it, 'whoo-oo'--the
faintest sound in the keyhole. I looked up,
and saw the feathers on a sparrow's breast
ruffled for an instant. It was quiet for
some time; after a while it came again with
heavier purpose. The folded shutters shook;
the latch of the kitchen door rattled as
if some one were lifting it and dropped it;
indefinite noises came from upstairs: there
was a hand in the house moving everything.
Another pause. The kitten was curled up on
the window-ledge outside in the sunshine,
just as the sleek cats curled up in the warmth
at Thebes of old Egypt five or six thousand
years ago; the sparrow was happy at the rose
tree; a bee was happy on a broad dandelion
disc. 'Soo-hoo!'--a low whistle came through
the chink; a handful of rain was flung at
the window; a great shadow rushed up the
valley and strode the house in an instant
as you would get over a stile. I put down
my book and buttoned my coat. Soo-hoo! the
wind was here and the cloud--soo-hoo! drawing
out longer and more plaintive in the thin
mouthpiece of the chink. The cloud had no
more rain in it, but it shut out the sun;
and all that afternoon and all that night
the low plaint of the wind continued in sorrowful
hopelessness, and little sounds ran about
the floors and round the rooms.
Still soo-hoo all the next day and sunlessness,
turning the mind, through work and conversation,
to pensive notes. At even the edge of the
cloud lifted over the forest hill westwards,
and a yellow glow, the great beacon fire
of the sun, burned out, a conflagration at
the verge of the world. In the night, awaking
gently as one who is whispered to--listen!
Ah! all the orchestra is at work--the keyhole,
the chink, and the chimney; whoo-hooing in
the keyhole, whistling shrill whew-w-w! in
the chink, moaning long and deep in the chimney.
Over in the field the row of pines was sighing;
the wind lingered and clung to the close
foliage, and each needle of the million million
leaflets drew its tongue across the organ
blast. A countless multitude of sighs made
one continued distant undertone to the wild
roar of the gable close at hand. Something
seemed to be running with innumerable centipede
feet over the mouth of the chimney, for the
long deep moan, as I listened, resolved itself
into a quick succession of touches, just
as you might play with your finger-tips,
fifty times a second tattooing on the hollow
table. In the midst of the clangour the hearing
settled down to the sighing of the pines,
which drew the mind towards it, and soothed
the senses to sleep.
Towards dawn, awake again--another change:
the battering-ram at work now against the
walls. Swinging back, the solid thickness
of the wind came forward--crush! as the iron-shod
ram's head hanging from its chains rushed
to the tower. Crush! It sucked back again
as if there had been a vacuum--a moment's
silence, and crush! Blow after blow--the
floor heaved; the walls were ready to come
together--alternate sucking back and heavy
billowy advance. Crush! crush! Blow after
blow, heave and batter and hoist, as if it
would tear the house up by the roots. Forty
miles that battering-ram wind had travelled
without so much as a bough to check it till
it struck the house on the hill. Thud! thud!
as if it were iron and not air. I looked
from the window, and the bright morning star
was shining--the sky was full of the wind
and the star. As light came, the thud, thud
sunk away, and nothing remained but the whoo-hoo-hoo
of the keyhole and the moan of the chimney.
These did not leave us; for four days and
nights the whoo-hoo-hoo-whoo never ceased
a moment. Whoo-hoo! whoo! and this is the
wind on the hill indoors.
Out of doors, sometimes in the morning, deep
in the valley, over the tree-tops of the
forest, there stays a vapour, lit up within
by sunlight. A glory hovers over the oaks--a
cloud of light hundreds of feet thick, the
air made visible by surcharge and heaviness
of sunbeams, pressed together till you can
see them in themselves and not reflected.
The cloud slants down the sloping wood, till
in a moment it is gone, and the beams are
now focussed in the depth of the narrow valley.
The mirror has been tilted, and the glow
has shifted; in a moment more it has vanished
into space, and the dream has gone from the
wood. In the arms of the wind, vast bundles
of mist are borne against the hill; they
widen and slip, and lengthen, drawing out;
the wind works quickly with moist colours
ready and a wide brush laying broadly. Colour
comes up in the wind; the thin mist disappears,
drunk up in the grass and trees, and the
air is full of blue behind the vapour. Blue
sky at the far horizon--rich deep blue overhead--a
dark-brown blue deep yonder in the gorge
among the trees. I feel a sense of blue colour
as I face the strong breeze; the vibration
and blow of its force answer to that hue,
the sound of the swinging branches and the
rush--rush in the grass is azure in its note;
it is wind-blue, not the night-blue, or heaven-blue,
a colour of air. To see the colour of air
it needs great space like this--a vastness
of concavity and hollow--an equal caldron
of valley and plain under, to the dome of
the sky over, for no vessel of earth and
sky is too large for the air-colour to fill.
Thirty, forty, and more miles of eye-sweep,
and beyond that the limitless expanse over
the sea--the thought of the eye knows no
butt, shooting on with stellar penetration
into the unknown. In a small space there
seems a vacuum, and nothing between you and
the hedge opposite, or even across the valley;
in a great space the void is filled, and
the wind touches the sight like a thing tangible.
The air becomes itself a cloud, and is coloured--recognised
as a thing suspended; something real exists
between you and the horizon. Now full of
sun, and now of shade, the air-cloud rests
in the expanse.
It is summer, and the wind-birds top the
furze; the bright stonechat, velvet-black
and red and white, sits on the highest spray
of the gorse, as if he were painted there.
He is always in the wind on the hill, from
the hail of April to August's dry glow. All
the mile-long slope of the hill under me
is purple-clad with heath down to the tree-filled
gorge where the green boughs seem to join
the purple. The corn-fields and the pastures
of the plain--count them one by one till
the hedges and squares close together and
cannot be separated. The surface of the earth
melts away as if the eyes insensibly shut
and grew dreamy in gazing, as the soft clouds
melt and lose their outline at the horizon.
But dwelling there, the glance slowly finds
and fills out something that interposes its
existence between us and the further space.
Too shadowy for the substance of a cloud,
too delicate for outline against the sky,
fainter than haze, something of which the
eye has consciousness, but cannot put into
a word to itself. Something is there. It
is the air-cloud adhering like a summer garment
to the great downs by the sea. I cannot see
the substance of the hills nor their exact
curve along the sky; all I can see is the
air that has thickened and taken to itself
form about them. The atmosphere has collected
as the shadow collects in the distant corner
of a room--it is the shadow of the summer
wind. At times it is so soft, so little more
than the air at hand, that I almost fancy
I can look through the solid boundary. There
is no cloud so faint; the great hills are
but a thought at the horizon; I _think_ them
there rather than see them; if I were not
thinking of them, I should scarce know there
was even a haze, with so dainty a hand does
the atmosphere throw its covering over the
massy downs. Riding or passing quickly perhaps
you would not observe them; but stay among
the heathbells, and the sketch appears in
the south. Up from the sea over the corn-fields,
through the green boughs of the forest, along
the slope, comes a breath of wind, of honey-sweetened
air, made more delicate by the fanning of
a thousand wings.
The labour of the wind: the cymbals of the
aspen clashing, from the lowest to the highest
bough, each leaf twirling first forwards
and then backwards and swinging to and fro,
a double motion. Each lifts a little and
falls back like a pendulum, twisting on itself;
and as it rises and sinks, strikes its fellow-leaf.
Striking the side of the dark pines, the
wind changes their colour and turns them
paler. The oak leaves slide one over the
other, hand above hand, laying shadow upon
shadow upon the white road. In the vast net
of the wide elm-tops the drifting shadow
of the cloud which the wind brings is caught
for a moment. Pushing aside the stiff ranks
of the wheat with both arms, the air reaches
the sun-parched earth. It walks among the
mowing-grass like a farmer feeling the crop
with his hand one side, and opening it with
his walking-stick the other. It rolls the
wavelets carelessly as marbles to the shore;
the red cattle redden the pool and stand
in their own colour. The green caterpillar
swings as he spins his thread and lengthens
his cable to the tide of air, descending
from the tree; before he can slip it the
whitethroat takes him. With a thrust the
wind hurls the swift fifty miles faster on
his way; it ruffles back the black velvet
of the mole peeping forth from his burrow.
Apple bloom and crab-apple bloom have been
blown long since athwart the furrows over
the orchard wall; May petals and June roses
scattered; the pollen and the seeds of the
meadow-grasses thrown on the threshing-floor
of earth in basketfuls. Thistle down and
dandelion down, the brown down of the goat's-beard;
by-and-by the keys of the sycamores twirling
aslant--the wind carries them all on its
back, gossamer web and great heron's vanes--the
same weight to the wind; the drops of the
waterfall blown aside sprinkle the bright
green ferns. The voice of the cuckoo in his
season travels on the zephyr, and the note
comes to the most distant hill, and deep
into the deepest wood.
The light and fire of summer are made beautiful
by the air, without whose breath the glorious
summer were all spoiled. Thick are the hawthorn
leaves, many deep on the spray; and beneath
them there is a twisted and intertangled
winding in and out of boughs, such as no
curious ironwork of ancient artist could
equal; through the leaves and metal-work
of boughs the soft west wind wanders at its
ease. Wild wasp and tutored bee sing sideways
on their course as the breeze fills their
vanes; with broad coloured sails boomed out,
the butterfly drifts alee. Beside a brown
coated stone in the shadowed stream a brown
trout watches for the puffs that slay the
May-flies. Their ephemeral wings were made
for a more exquisite life; they endure but
one sun; they bear not the touch of the water;
they die like a dream dropping into the river.
To the amethyst in the deep ditch the wind
comes; no petal so hidden under green it
cannot find; to the blue hill-flower up by
the sky; it lifts the guilty head of the
passionate poppy that has sinned in the sun
for love. Sweet is the rain the wind brings
to the wallflower browned in the heat, a-dry
on the crumbling stone. Pleasant the sunbeams
to the marigold when the wind has carried
the rain away and his sun-disc glows on the
bank. Acres of perfume come on the wind from
the black and white of the bean-field; the
firs fill the air by the copse with perfume.
I know nothing to which the wind has not
some happy use. Is there a grain of dust
so small the wind shall not find it out?
Ground in the mill-wheel of the centuries,
the iron of the distant mountain floats like
gossamer, and is drunk up as dew by leaf
and living lung. A thousand miles of cloud
go by from morn till night, passing overhead
without a sound; the immense packs, a mile
square, succeed to each other, side by side,
laid parallel, book-shape, coming up from
the horizon and widening as they approach.
From morn till night the silent footfalls
of the ponderous vapours travel overhead,
no sound, no creaking of the wheels and rattling
of the chains; it is calm at the earth, but
the wind labours without an effort above,
with such case, with such power. Grey smoke
hangs on the hill-side where the couch-heaps
are piled, a cumulus of smoke; the wind comes,
and it draws its length along like the genii
from the earthen pot; there leaps up a great
red flame shaking its head; it shines in
the bright sunlight; you can see it across
the valley.
A perfect summer day with a strong south
wind; a cloudless blue sky blown pale, a
summer sun blown cool, deep draughts of refreshing
air to man and horse, clear definition of
red-tile roof and conical oast, perfect colour
of soft ash-green trees. In the evening,
fourteen black swifts rushing together through
the upper atmosphere with shrill cries, sometimes
aside and on the tip of one wing, with a
whirl descending, a black trail, to the tiled
ridge they dwell in. Fine weather after this.
A swooning August day, with a hot east wind,
from which there is no escape, which gives
no air to the chest--you breathe and are
not satisfied with the inspiration; it does
not fill; there is no life in the killed
atmosphere. It is a vacuum of heat, and yet
the strong hot wind bends the trees, and
the tall firs wrestle with it as they did
with Sinis, the Pine-bender, bowed down and
rebounding as if they would whirl their cones
away like a catapult. Masses of air are moving
by, and yet there is none to breathe. No
escape in the shadow of hedge or wood, or
in the darkened room; darkness excludes the
heat that comes with light, but the heat
of the oven-wind cannot be shut out. Some
monstrous dragon of the Chinese sky pants
his fiery breath upon us, and the brown grass
stalks threaten to catch flame in the field.
The grain of wheat that was full of juice
dries hard in the ears, and water is no more
good for thirst. There is not a cloud in
the sky; but at night there is heavy rain,
and the flowers are beaten down. There is
a thunder-wind that blows at intervals when
great clouds are visibly gathering over the
hayfield. It is almost a calm; but from time
to time a breath comes, and a low mournful
cry sounds in the hollow farmhouse--the windows
and doors are open, and the men and women
have gone out to make hasty help in the hay
ere the storm--a mournful cry in the hollow
house, as unhappy a note as if it were soaked
February.
In April, six miles away in the valley, a vast cloud came down with swan-shot of hail, black as blackest smoke, overwhelming house and wood, all gone and mixed with the sky; and behind the mass there followed a white cloud, sunlit, dragging along the ground like a cumulus fallen to the earth. At sunset the sky cleared, and under the glowing rim of the sun a golden wind drove the host of vapour before it, scattering it to the right and left. Large pieces caught and tore themselves in the trees of the forest, and one curved fragment hurled from the ridge fell in the narrow coombe, lit up as it came down with golden sunset rays, standing out bright against the shadowed wood. Down it came slowly as it were with outstretched arms, both to fall, carrying the coloured light of the sky to the very surface of the heart. | ||||
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